By Joanna W.
I spent 7 years with training in power, and went to level 6.
It is easy to write a positive review as someone in levels 1-4. Levels 1-3 are wonderful, mostly. If you are hooked, if you must, go through with levels 1-3, then run far far away.
There is a reason the drop out rate is 50% or more after the level 6 retreat.
At first it was amazing, positive. I felt high on life. Meditation was new to me….healing was new to me. Of course I was easily hooked. The training is very careful to build you up, to reassure you of your ‘power’, and how different and special you (they) are. I think I was particularly vulnerable to this. But then again, who doesnt want to feel ‘special’.
From level 4 on, things started to get weirder. Only in retrospect can I see the brainwashing that occurred. It’s hard to put into words, without writing a novel here. But, such a focus on defending oneself, on attack, on evil. Of course, if you expect something to ‘get you’, something will get you. It is these underlying belief systems in the training that are most scarring
Fayes will tell you in level 6 her story about “why we are here”, and reveals her beliefs about reality and the lower astral plane. We were sent to earth from far away places, something went wrong, now there are souls trapped in the lower astral plane, T.I.P is focused on battling negativity in the lower astral plane and recapitulating souls. yadda yadda. It’s like the wizard pulling back the curtain. Unlike levels 1-5, there is no room for your own opinion now, or your own beliefs. The story is laid out. Faye has a story, not unlike every religion having a story. And her story has a very particular slant. It is a belief system of a very wounded person. someone who has had to fight and therefore teaches her students to be wary, an emphasis on protecting themselves, to expect loads of negativity to always be coming after you, to expect life is hard.
I don’t doubt the lower astral plane is real. do i feel like it is my calling to spend a good majority of my energy and daily awareness working in the L.A.P? Nope.
In fact, my experience. as a level 6 grad, I had more anxiety, was less functional, had more psychic crap coming my way than ever before. It was almost unbearable. Since I have left, all that has cleared up. Instead of daily attacks, I might have a little something once a month that is cleared up easily enough.
My attendance at the level 6 retreat was what sealed the deal for me. I know what beautiful, shiny healthy happy people look like. Sure, there were a few in the crowd. But upon meeting the community at large I began to question my commitment. These people are fearful. They are not connected to their bodies (hell, neither was i after 7 years of the training). Some were so out of it that I felt truly concerned for them. The pain I felt at level 6, realizing the level of brainwashing that was around me, is the most pain I have dealt with. 7 years of my life given. I trusted these people.
My advice? Yes, the training is unique. Life filled life, as I call it. Tempting, for sure. Life can feel ordinary sometimes, TIP solves that. I thought I was safe to dabble. I thought that the good outweighed the bad. It’s only in retrospect that I realize how much damage was done.
Everything is affected, and it happens over time so its hard to catch. your core beliefs, your energy, your ability to be present in life and in this world. yes, you feel high. I won’t argue that. It comes with a price though.
I personally can attest to:
- implied sex abuse from my dad during a level one reading (10 years later, still untrue for me)
- Faye herself told me I was sinning against the goddess during a healing after I told her I was (very happily for 4 years now) employed as an escort
- she went on to accuse me of being an unconscious thief and stealing from her wallet (absolutely untrue and downright abusive). To suggest it is unconcious means I can’t know for myself if it is true. coming from someone you trust, do you realize how much that messes with you?)
- later, when i asked other teachers if they saw it, and told them Faye saw it, none would say they did, but all would also support Faye and tell me to learn from the lesson
- angry, uncalled for outbursts from Faye after a simple question was asked as a level 2.
Anyway. I could go on. But I’ve written enough…
Since leaving the training (a long, unwinding, two year process now involving a wise, wonderful therapist who also left a cult), I have re-learned to focus on love and beauty, not fear, attacks and battle, and in turn, my life is more beautiful now. I am more connected with joy, I feel more at home in this world, and in my body. I dont have to worry about wearing 17 shields just to feel safe ; )
I have had to re-learn who I am, and what I believe in.
The loss of community was tremendous, but the gain was worthwhile.