Submitted anonymously
Hi there,
As many others I would like to remain anonymous. I have been following your website since you posted it a while back. There’s power in numbers so I thought I’d add my story to the list.
I enrolled in TIP several years ago as my partner had taken the first 2 levels and was pretty darned committed to continuing. I tried to tell myself that I enrolled because I wanted to and not because I felt I had too in order to help our relationship. The training was having an effect on our relationship(as I knew it) since social engagements were becoming very “TIP-oriented”, and we were spending little time with our “other” friends. Not to mention that when I tried to have discussions about this issue I was told I was being self-important and other jargon from the TIP vocabulary. It suddenly became all about me and my shortcomings….not the 2-way open conversations I was accustomed to having. So off I embarked on my TIP journey.
I completed Level I and I have to admit that I did benefit. Prior to Level 1 Idid not meditate so the tools acquired in this level were timely and rewarding (but these tools are available just about anywhere). I did however have a lot of questions regarding some of the course material and the fee structure. I was totally baffled at the “weigh control room” as it implied something negative about people with weight issues. And of course the whole concept of Level 1 being equivalent to spending years in a cave or something or other was well just plain unbelievable. Also, I could not understand how a group with a mandate to “heal” would not make allowances for people of lower income brackets; a sliding fee structure so to speak based on your income.
Despite my concerns, my partner was still committed so I decided to enroll in Level II. That of course meant getting my Level I “clearing”…….cash grab! As so many before me have mentioned I was told that I had “likely” been abused based on one of my card draws.Afterwards I meditated and mediated trying to identify my “abuser”and at what time in my life I had been abused. I almost had myself convinced that I had been abused as a child by a family friend, but in the end decided that I really and truly have never been sexually abused. I still take that stand. However the power of suggestion in the Level I clearing was very effective. After completing Level II I still felt the same about the training and decided that maybe I just wasn’t engaging enough so I made a point of going to the focuses and attending healings. The healings were just downright bizarre. I had asked in class why we couldn’t just “unhook” the feeling of betrayal in our regression pool and naturally I got one of those canned answers which really didn’t answer my question at all.
During the focuses I was uncomfortable with the addressors in that 1) they are not trained and some of the addressees have some pretty serious issues; and, 2) there seemed to be that feeling of hierarchy, that we weren’t all equal in that room. The latter feeling is one I experienced often, not just during the focuses, but also during other gatherings (or is that self-importance!!! which is sure is what I would have been told).
My partner was moving forward; “the push for 6” or whatever, the term drove me nuts! Despite the fact that I too was in the training I did not find it any easier with regards to our relationship. I recall saying to one of the “teachers” that there should be a support group for partners of people in TIP. I had just simply decided that what happens happens and there’s not much I can do about it. My partner was not about to leave the training for me (did I mention this was a long-term loving relationship). I was considering taking Level III and decided that I just could not pursue something that I felt very critical and resentful towards. Shortly thereafter my partner received “the email” which was the turning point for my partner. We have both left the training and have not looked back since.
Thank-you thank-you thank-you. Our life is returning to a semblance of “normal” and for that I am forever thankful.
[Name withheld by request]